What is life as we know it???? I know mine forever seems hectic and show's no signs of slowing down!!!!
I so envy the clients who come in, when I ask if they have been busy?? Some reply with "No not really"!!!! Ooooh I wish!!! But then would I really wish to be not so busy all the time!!! It's hard for me to sit and do nothing as it is!!! Even going to the hairdressers of being a passenger in a car I am doing something whether it is sketching out more LO's or planning reading or something!!! I wish I could just sit still and unwind.... I seem to just crash and burn when I stop!!! I'm not sure if you could call sitting in front of the TV late at night in a sort of stuper with a blank glazed look across my face unwinding, I think that's when my body just shuts down and says enough is enough!! LOL
Is there a happy medium though, and if anyone does have it can you let me in on your secret????
I am happy with my life in general, but there are certain things I would rather be doing that are just out of my control for the moment!!!
I know life is never going to be an easy downhill run all the way, and you have to expect hiccups along the way. It would just be nice to have things all go my way for awhile!!! I can only dream can't I???
My weight has been another bone of contention with me lately!!! I did so well last year to lose 12Kgs to just put it all back on again!!! I haven't been game to get on the scales!!!
I tore a ligament in my heel playing tennis in February which stopped me from exercising altogether!! This is the first week I have had since February that I haven't had daily pain with it!!! So hopefully that is finally on the mend!! But the stress with work and not being able to exercise has definitely done the damage. I know these are just excuses but what I want to know is why??? I don't think I will ever win my battle with the bulge until I work that out!!!! I'm sick of being a yoyo dieter!!!
Why can't I get back into the right frame of mind again??? It is such a downward spiral, I get stressed then eat (biggest offender is comfort food chocolate), then I get depressed when I can't fit into clothes, so then I eat because I am depressed. It is such a huge catch 22, and I want off this band wagon!!! I know there are no quick and easy solutions so I think that is what makes it all the harder to get back on track!!! I don't want to be super model thin I just want to be comfortable in my clothes again!!!
Putting the weight back on has definitely affected my confidence in myself. Maybe if I get someone to take some pics of me from every angle in my swimmers might be enough to shock me back into action or just make me vomit and totally gross me out LOL!!!! So feeling blah and fat and unfit!!!! Why is it all so hard!!!!!! Where does my will power go??? Why does it go???? And why can't I control it!!!!!! grrrrrr
My sister had her baby, a little girl called Alex up in Townsville hospital, she was born a week early and only weighed 3lb, so tiny and small she has been in intensive care for a week now but is doing well!! They were so lucky they were up in Townsville already with her eldest daughter who suffered those terrible burns!!! After 4 weeks and 2 lots of skin graphs she is out of the hospital but still in Townsville. So they have had a very traumatic month up there!!! Can't wait to take some new little baby pics and get in lots of cuddles!!!!
On the home front, I have driven over 800km's since Saturday for the kids and their sports, we had Footy in Blackwater last weekend and we had to drive to Glenden today for Wil's Denim Zone Athletics trials!!!
It has been a long day, we were up at 5am and on the road by 6 for a 3hr drive then we didn't get back home again until 6pm tonight!!! It rained nearly all the way there, then sunshine all day and rained half way home too!!! So I am a tad buggered tonight!! The kids are asking whats for tea??? Leftovers or noodles my dears!!!!
Wil did well for the day and ended up with a second place in the high jump!!! He wasn't very happy with himself because he didn't jump his pb which would have got him 1st place. I am very proud of him anyway!!!! I just love seeing them having a go and trying to push themselves to do better!!! I love seeing the courage and determination developing in them!! But I also like to see them lose as well, I think it teaches them to be gracious in defeat, which I think is just as important as winning!!!! It also stops them from getting to cocky too!!! I want them to believe that they can be the best, but I don't want them to think that they are the best, if you get what I mean!!!! Cause in the big scheme of things it's not always about winning!!!! It's about living!!!!!
Last but not least I got my latest dare finished for the How Dare You Challenges!!! It had to be Inspired by Teesha Moore, I had fun with this, I think it will be a style I will be playing with heaps more now!!!
Take care everyone!!!
Love that LO Michelle!!! Keep going with that.
I can't wait to see you in a few weeks. You sound like you need a hug, and the trip down here. I'm happy to make you feel better in any way that I can.
Drop me an email. My computer died, along with my address book, so I don't have yours. And I'd love to talk to you........
K xx
Posted by: Kirst | July 29, 2006 at 03:37 PM
i just wanna jump on a plane/in a car/on a boat/or on shank's pony and come up there and give you a great big hug there my gorgeous friend.
and one day i will.
but until then, all i can do is send you some cyber hugs and lots of positive thoughts.
take care of you
xo
p.s. great news about wil; great news on both your nieces' progress and that LO rocks woman !!!!!
Posted by: shazz | July 28, 2006 at 08:34 PM
Congrats on becoming an Aunty again Michelle! Your layout is sensational! You rise to every challenge!! Well, you know I share that weighty issue with you!LOL We'll just keep plugging along hey?!!LOL
Posted by: Chris | July 28, 2006 at 07:20 PM
I'll say it again, I FREAKIN LOVE this LO!! It ROCKS!! I know where you are coming from with the weight and CHOCOLATE. It is my major food group. I am so glad your niece is on the mend too. YAY for Wil the high jump star. Take care of yourself.
Posted by: Susan J | July 27, 2006 at 10:42 PM